Bathing suit

Bathing suit ... aka ... evil embarrassment outfit.

I am no longer in denial about weighing 30lbs more than I ever have. This year I am completely dreading & terrified of the upcoming bathing suit season. I am going on a 4-day cruise in September and my body is sooooo not ready to be displayed in public. I have not truly experienced summer with the discomfort of having no waist, and a large bum covered with cellulite but nursing school has generously provided the means for me to experience such a nightmare! Ha, ha! UGH! I have a lot of work ahead of me ... step one ... get off the couch and go to a gym. LOL.

Time ... where is the time???

OK, I have nursing school classes, studying, Reserves, work, volunteer hours, house cleaning & wife duties to attend to ... WHEN exactly am I supposed to fit in workout time? The days I could probably squeeze it in I am too exhausted to go. I have basically done nothing. I still haven't signed up for the YMCA and I am so not dieting. I did replace my usual junk food with the "100 calorie" alternative. UGH!

Inside

Also, I started reading my bible again to help with my overall concept of health ... can't forget to feed the soul right?!! I will eventually finish my one year bible ... lol about 2 1/2 to 3 years later! It's a journey ... :o)

Hum ...

Well, I went to sign-up for Weight Watcher, TWICE and they were closed both times. The first time I didn't know that they are only open a 1/2 hour before each meeting, the second time I just read the times wrong. I don't think I am ready for that step yet, I am going to check out the Balley's & YMCA near my school to price them & just START exercising!

Healthy

Well, since our fertility treatments have been put on hold for the next 5 months I figured, I should take advantage of this opportunity and become healthier! I have NEVER tried to diet and have rarely exercised. Now that I am 20lbs heavier than last year (15lbs of which was put on in the 1st quarter of nursing school) and 30lbs heavier than I was just 3 short years ago, I decided it was time to do something about it. I am a bit scared and intimidated by the whole dieting thing, I often forget to feed myself during the day, it is the night time eating that has gotten me in a lot of trouble, that and I drink WAY more coffee then I used to. (I like the sweet girly drinks too, not good.) I figure I need something else to focus on over the summer break so my health is a good place to put a bit of much needed attention toward. I will let you know how it goes. :o)